Today, I canceled my planning. My plan just straightforwad. Clean my room , print it out the hand out in bb, then open website google to find information ,download java program, then try again the lesson that i learned just now. I just scared i forgot the ways to make the program. So, I must keep training. It is the first time I study about programmer. I dont know anything about this lesson. I dont have basic. Keep on fight. I must pull my effort. trying to understand. I just wanna pass this subject. I hope I dont find it next semster again . However, My mom wanna me become a programmer. I dont know its hard or not. I dont know I can do or not. Maybe I must try this subject first. Then, If interesting, I'll move my major. Networking is my major. I take it because (hehe) the name of networking is strange , intereset, nice, and ok la for me. I also dont have basic about this. It study about electricity. And in class, Just have one girl. Its me haha. My friends said " its nice. u can become like a queen among the boys ". haha. Can some1 beliv that?. haha. I love my friends as much as I love myself. They have the highest humor that can make me shine, smile, and sometimes bright with their crazy habbit. hha. And of course, I hope , there ar some1 that can make my life bright more than that. But for me, friendship is as same as important with my partner. Its not easy to find a perfect friend. depends the lucky la. hehe. Also, its not easy to find the match . hua, if about the match. I dont knoe everything. Just everyone that ever fall in love can knoe how the feeling is. Many peoples said Love will suddenly come in our life. Eventhought, in my dictionary. Love wont come if I dont active. Not only boys must active to get the love, buat also the girl have 2 active. But, how to making myself active? Im a closeness person. Its hard 2 me to be kind a active person. hia. I have friends. Im not alone. But, I consistenly feel lonely. ah. dont wanna think anymore again. It can make drive me crazy. hho Actually, i dont know what I like, what I wanna choose. My mind always on change. I cant discrete the difference between my mind and my feeling. I feel my feeling and my mind sometimes combination. Yeah, my friends said i a weak brain person. hha. Its ok la. Maybe its my weakness. hho. But I dont wanna become it anymore. I hope I can catch fastly what my friends say, I hope I can gv respond and say something interest , I hope I can make my emotion come out and consult with friends if i got the problem without saving it inside my heart, I hope I can make it some1 happy arround me, I hope I dont make the problem again to my friend, my family, and all around me. "Making problem, saving emotional n problem". All of them can make my heart hurt like a knife kill me inside my heart. What happen if i get the big pain, then its full. all my body exploded like a bomb . It was like the murder disease.., Its came self when I almost wanted to sleep and it made me shake, tremble, and get a shock..., I was having like that more than 5 times . aa9. and I just hope I dont take the wrong subject. Study hard is the best way. ckckck. ALL i can do is just hoping hoping hoping and hoping. =.=. But, one of my planning done already.. hihi.. It was to downlon java program. I just find one program and another program , i cant find it. Tommorrow lar. ask lecture. Hu uh..., I must make schedule , thus I dont spend my time just 4 sleeping. But, How 2 make schedule properly!!.., I nvr2 make schedule in my life. Its not me. Making schedule just waste time..., hhi..==a. Nothing to do, but I feel super super super tired. ^^.., Today is not really good 4 me. Hope tomorow, my day will be good. hehe